It has been an interesting year. This year:
I moved from a small city to a bigger city and down one flight of stairs to move everything back up two.
My car broke down on the side of a major highway and I had my single major mental breakdown in my car. (no picture, but I am sure you can imagine)
Got stuck in a airport in Florida with my siblings and no way to escape.
Had friends visit from far away.
I made another rotation around the sun, and celebrated with a bomb ass scavenger hunt.
and graduated from my undergrad…and started my masters.
I quit my part-time job.
and did a few too many zodiac sign quizzes.
My online presence took a hit to my physical presence but I am on my way back.
Cheers to 2017, let’s hope it is more promising than this dumpster fire of a year. I look to 2017 like this pretty rainbow over Niagara Falls. See you next year!
There is snow on the ground…
and spices in the air…
you are allowed to sleep in…
and not go to school…
You can stay home and watch hallmark christmas movies all day…
you are allowed to sit in the dark with christmas lights and Michael Buble in the background…
and eat food until you feel sick…
binge all your favourite shows…
drink excessively with friends…
have an excuse to shop…
…oh yeah I guess spend time with your family too.
Even though the weather can be pretty crummy, everything else makes up for it. I hope you all have a merry Christmas and a happy New Year!
It has been a while since I have found myself inspired to write anything here. But as my first semester of grad school is wrapping up, I finally have something to say.
There have been many days where I am exhausted and I get home when it is dark out and day is over. There are days where I may not have to go to school at all. I have met and been able to study with six amazing new people and study under many more. I got the opportunity to write my major research paper with a professor who I sincerely respect and admire.
I drank too much alcohol, and too little water. I have made mistakes and procrastinated, but I also made amazing memories. I have a great family who stands behind me and supports me in the pursuit of knowledge and academia. I have begun a study in something I am extremely interested in, but equally know that in a few years it will be just another page in the book.
There are many different illnesses I have diagnosed myself with, and many days I was too sick to get out of bed. My diet got significantly worse, consisting almost entirely of ramen and instant rice.
My bank account is depleted, but my soul is full. For the nights spent at the cafe or the pub with friends, drinking lattes or chugging beers while marking papers and studying for classes.
Grad school has not diversified my existence, but made me more comfortable in the life I am living. In the stressful, high-paced environment I have found contentment, and I am ready for what is to come.
- Have a friend that can be your support system, your editor and your bodyguard all in one.
- Take a leap of faith on things you are unsure about. Sometimes amazing things will happen because you put yourself out there.
- Bubble baths should be a weekly thing.
- Cheap masks from the drugstore should not.
- Do what YOU want to do. Life isn’t all about living up to others expectations for you. (aka. if you want to go to grad school, go)
- Try and eat green once in a while. And no, green apple candies do not count.
- If it isn’t right in your life, don’t fear quitting. I quit my retail job and I am still surviving.
- Being a teacher’s assistant is an annoyingly rewarding experience. In that the students are annoying, but when they actually learn something you are rewarded.
- Save towards something that is important to you. Whether it be travel, your OSAP payments or a house, it is a great feeling to see something come out of your hard work.
- I mailed myself a list of things I would do better for myself while in grad school. I have effectively accomplished none of the things.
- Set realistic goals.
- Knowing if there is an elevator in an apartment should be important when debating moving.
- Being lazy probably makes me the most efficient person, because I will find the quickest way to do things.
- Graduation isn’t as exciting as it seems. Enjoy your time in university, it’ll be over before you know it.
- Listen to more Adele, she is good for the soul.
- But also try and let loose every once in a while. Dance parties are a healthy hobby.
- Take chances. Get that piercing, dye your hair.
- Keep up with old friends.
- Stop cutting your own hair, we are all old enough to get a $20 cut from first choice.
- Retail is not a forever job for me. I hated the crazy expectations stores have for employees. Especially when they only give you minimum wage and minimum hours.
- Go all out for your birthday. Your only young once. We all love a good scavenger hunt.
So unfortunately I am not forever 21. And although this post is a bit of a mess, it is the culmination of the things I have learned over the past year.
If you are Canadian, then Thanksgiving is coming up for you this weekend. If you are American, you can sit patiently and wait for November. And if you are from anywhere else you probably don’t give a shit about Thanksgiving and think we are all gluttonous, shopaholics.
And I know when it actually comes to me this thanksgiving I will probably give some sugar sweet answer to my grandmother like “my education” or “my family”, but I figured I would keep it real for y’all and give you the things I am truly thankful for this thanksgiving.
- Dry Shampoo.
- Waiting three weeks to do my laundry so I can do it for free when I go home.
- Public Wi-fi.
- Friends who comment on my Instagram pictures.
- That one friend who takes great photos of you.
- Taking “me days” and not going to school.
- Getting more wine than you paid for.
- Big scarves.
- Friends repeats.
- That I probably won’t be trampled to death on Black Friday.
- When the weather is cold enough to justify not leaving the house.
- Elevators to the third floor.
- Wearing leggings as pants.
- Candles scented like the outdoors.
- Classes that get cancelled.
- Classes that get cancelled and don’t have a make up day.
- That my birthday is in November.
I guess I am also thankful for the obvious things… family, friends, health, education.
If you couldn’t guess from this un-descriptive title. This post will be my first thoughts about entering the bottom rung of professional academia. It is a real struggle at 3 weeks in: lots of papers, names I still don’t know and some high expectations.
I have been working on both the beginnings of an MRP (major research paper), TA’ing for first year film and also taking my own classes. So busy is an understatement. Although there are some perks to being so involved. You may hear that your students really like you, or maybe you’ll hear them talking shit about you after you shush them in class. There are other things that I move between loving and hating. For instance, I am allowed to create my own seminar plan, which is both freeing and extremely difficult.
Possibly the greatest irony in my life to date is having to attend film, attend the showing, do the readings AND lead seminar. However, when I took film I only attended seminar (the part that you got marks for). So isn’t it interesting that I am now the expert to these children?
In terms of class, I am only in class two days a week for three hours a session. However, this is nothing to scoff at, because I spend roughly 4-5 hours a week in preparation for these classes. This master’s program is no walk in the park, it is more of a sprint uphill… and I hate running.
However, all of the stress from school is relatively forgotten when I return home. Expect when I find my car has a flat tire on my way to work. Twice.
But all of this being said, these first few weeks have been an extreme test of my strength. But don’t worry, reading week is fast approaching and that means fall activities and sleeping till noon.
Apologies for the lack of posting but I was trying to get into the groove of things. But I am back and as mediocre as ever. Namaste.
That’s right folks, ya gurl Brittany has survived one week at school and already has a mouthful to say about it.
So after one extremely busy week back I have a few thoughts on my choice to do graduate studies.
First, meetings are exhausting af and no one should have to sit through a meeting that is more that 2 hours long.
Second, nothing is less inspirational than hearing your professor tell you about how little everyone else cares and how much work you will have to do.
Third, being a teacher’s assistant for a class you have already taken and never attended is probably the greatest irony of my entire existence.
Fourth, the attempt to balance multiple readings, course work, my MRP and work is all becoming too real.
Fifth, I have realized I have no idea how I will handle 40 hour work weeks when I can’t even handle the first week back in school.
Sixth, I am extremely glad to have found a group of misfits I can spend all my time with this year. It is refreshing to have new faces and new perspectives in my program.
Seventh, I need sleep. Not your normal eight hours, but all the sleep I can get, whether it be a thirty minute cat nap or a ten hour un-interrupted sleep session.
Stayed tuned for more updates as this journey continues. Week one was brutal but I’m sure it is bound to spiral down hill from here.. Cheers to grad school!