-Insert My Chemical Romance Lyrics Here-

-Insert My Chemical Romance Lyrics Here-

I like to think of myself as a pretty happy person. That being said, I can’t lie and say I don’t experience those terrible bouts of sadness where at first I’m not entirely sure why I feel that way but it bellows out and I start thinking about all things that have ever made me sad. This could go over the span of the past day or over multiple years where I rethink of things that make me sad. It is quite easy to misplace feelings or to cover them up when you are busy and tell yourself that you’ll sort them out later, but that’s not always the case. Which is why I find myself here right now, in a pile of work, feeling miserable over the same things that I always find myself upset about. It doesn’t matter how much time has gone by, perhaps I haven’t fully dealt with those feelings, because when they hit me, they hit me hard.
I guess the purpose of this post is to attempt to work through and put into words exactly how I feel about this situation without going into too much detail on the respective events. Last night, I had a dream of someone dear to me who is no longer here and I woke up upset because I miss them greatly and this is really the first time in a while that I have thought about them. It has taken me this long to really understand just why that made me so upset, it isn’t something I talk about and so when it unexpectedly comes to mind it really brings me down.
Unfortunately writing this won’t solve too much except hopefully help give me some peace of mind in having wrote it out without actually having to tell someone. This post won’t bring back that person and won’t magically make me happy again, because those scars will heal over time. Perhaps someone out there will connect to this and feel comfort in knowing someone out there feels the same. A weight has been lifted off my chest after rereading this already, it’s working.
I guess I should do some homework.

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